What I leave behind

     I just came back from the March of Dimes.  The weather was beautiful and we had a great turnout.  People from all over came to walk for this great cause.  As I walked with my friends I thought about how lucky I am.  I never lost a child, my son was born perfect.  I am lucky and blessed to have such a healthy, smart, beautiful little boy.  Then I thought about all the women who were walking because they lost their babies and I felt a wave of emotions come over me.  How strong these women have to be to be able to walk.  Loosing a child is probably the most difficult and heart breaking things I can imagine could ever happen and these women were walking on, smiling, being strong despite their loss, their sadness, their grief and emptiness in their hearts.

        And so I decided to change a few things.  I realize that I complain too much. We all do at some point.  These women could do nothing but complain yet, they walked on, talked, laughed and stayed positive. 

        I decided to leave behind the complaining, the whining, the constant feeling of discontent that I carry whenever something goes wrong.  I leave behind the annoyance with little things.  I leave behind negativity.  I leave behind excuses I make up for things I don't want to do.  These women have to wake up every day whether they feel like it or not.  They have the strength to face the world. I should too! I have nothing to complain about.  I have no worries, no sadness, and no heavy weight on my heart like these women do. 

       It's hard to change oneself and I know that I will have my ups and downs but every time I do, I will think of my dear friend who lost her baby and of all the women who came out today to our March of Dimes and to all the women who will forever carry their Little Angels in their Hearts.