Can't do it

       I need help. I can't do this.

       I can't say nothing is working because I haven't tried everything.  I can't loose weight. I've tracked my food, which, if you ask me, is just ridiculous.  Writing down everything I eat makes me anxious and paranoid that it's too much, too little, wrong foods, bla bla bla. I count calories but then I'm starving anyway. 

       I need to exercise but my arthritis makes it horrible and I just want to sit on my couch. Yes, I know, the more I move the better it will be. Except it still hurts.  I'm on Aleve daily.  

      I think I'm getting impatient with the fact that the weight is coming off so damn slowly it's almost nonexistent.   At this rate, I'll be 90 and skinny.  I don't think I'll care much about weight then.  

I need help. I need someone to kick my butt straight into a gym.